Boys and Girls, I Think I’ve Gone Cray

“Drown inside my vices all day.”

I was going to use the chorus to this song for the title of my post, since it’s basically the title song of post-election, but I decided to be kind of hipster, LOL.

I would say that this is going to be my last election post, but it probably won’t be, so why lie?

Although this post will be similar to my previous post, it’s more so something to clear things up, for you and my conscience.  I posted that piece on Wednesday, the afternoon that the results of the election were announced, after Hillary Clinton’s concession speech and President Obama’s speech.  I was heartbroken, scared, and hurting when I wrote that post, and it translated.  I look back at it, and I regret it: my emotions got the best me.  I always feel like the best arguments are the ones that a person is clearly passionate about said argument, but can tame their emotions enough to get a coherent and clear thought out.

My previous post was nothing like that: it was full of emotion, and although I stand by the things that I said, I know that there are some stuff that I should have reworded and clarified.  So, that is the purpose of this post.  If you’re tired of reading stuff about the election, feel free to leave.  I understand your frustration, but this election is pretty groundbreaking, so I will continue.

First point, and the most important: I DO NOT HATE WHITE PEOPLE.  I don’t hate anyone, really, because it takes a lot of energy to hate people, and life is too short to hate.  I’m more of a person that strongly dislikes people.  🙂  That’s besides the point though, what I am trying to say is that I try my hardest not to judge people on the basis of their race and skin tone, and I’ve been pretty successful at it for, like, ever.  Haha.  I do make jokes concerning race based on extreme stereotypes though, that is my one flaw.  I’m trying to work on it.  But, I don’t hate white people.  However, the majority of the people who backed Trump were white people (majority, not all), and with the condescending and offensive things he has said, it makes it hard for me to accept Trump supporters, no matter what color they are.

The second thing I want to say, is that I realize that neither candidate is perfect.  I was going through this huge battle with my heart and my head when I was casting my vote.  My heart was telling me to vote third party, which essentially wouldn’t have mattered because I live in CA and the state was going blue no matter what, but my head was telling me not to chance that, especially considering the possibility of a Trump presidency was imminent, and I wanted to make sure I stopped him.

It hurt my heart so, so, so much that I voted for Clinton.  She supports and has done SO many terrible things that I don’t support.  Especially when she stood by her husband and silenced the women that came forward and accused him of rape and sexual assault.  It seriously hurt me when I cast my vote for her, and I repent for what I did.  In a weird and very minuscule way, I’m kind of glad she didn’t win.  Clears my conscience a little.  But, I’m still really, really, really, upset that Trump won.

And the thing is, is that I hear a lot of people who voted for Clinton say similar things as I said.  That they voted for Clinton, but hated the fact that they did vote for her.  They believed that she was the better of two evils, as did I.  However, I don’t hear Trump supporters say anything along these lines.  Maybe because my closest exposure to Trump supporters is my Facebook feed, as well as the fact that it is hard to find news from either side from unbiased news outlets.  Typically, no matter what the outcome, you support your President-elect, but in this case, it is really hard for me to see why anyone would support Trump.

I can see why people voted for him.  His platform was enticing for a lot of people: he championed for poor and working class Americans, who have become seriously forgotten in the political world.  He spoke against the TPP and vowed to stop outsourcing jobs to other countries.  He pushed to “build the wall” between Mexico and the US and stop illegal immigration into the United States.  He also vowed to kill ISIS, and no one wants to be terrorized by ISIS again.

But Trump has said some incredibly ignorant and offensive things throughout the campaign.  He has disrespected women, people of color, Muslims, Mexicans, immigrants, and the LGBTQIA community.  He has cheated the federal tax system for years (people who call him saavy, ugh, please stop) and hasn’t supported the troops and education system and other programs that our federal taxes pay for.  He also has some serious mental health issues and psychopathic tendencies, and this person is going to be the leader of the free world.

Don’t even get me started on Mike Pence.  He is a true bigot, and has a crap ton more experience that Donald Trump in politics.  His political savviness, coupled with Trump’s lack of experience, means that he is most likely going to have a huge say in the Trump administration. He’s already taken on a larger role in the transition, and it probably won’t stop there.  Can we say Frank Underwood in House of Cards, much?  LOLOLOL, I friggen love that show.

But it hurts me that through all the negative things have been said by Trump about already marginalized groups, people support him to the ends of the Earth.  I understand that people are tired of being unrecognized by the elites in Washington, and Trump is someone that might be able to break the cycle.  But, Trump is also an elite himself, so I don’t know how he could be much different aside from the fact that he has ZERO experience in government or has not served our country.  But, when his supporters defend everything he has said, saying that he’s not racist, homophobic, or everything else, that is not being supportive, that is being ignorant.  And maybe you think of yourself as not racist, misogynistic, xenophobic, Islamophobic, or homophobic, but by supporting Trump, you’re saying that you don’t care about any of these groups.  Maybe if the supporters say something along the lines that they only supported his policies, maybe I will forgive their vote.  But even then, I’m not fully convinced about it.  I’ll just have to see if and when it ever happens.

Working class white Americans, I hear, understand, agree with your concerns.  Too many American jobs are being shipped out to other countries, and they should stay here.  There are so many Americans out there that have been stripped of their jobs and deserve to have them back.  But, America was only great for you back then because you had jobs.  That same America that you miss so much was a pretty shitty America for people of color and other marginalized groups.  We need to be able to find a balance for all people of the United States.

To say that I hope Trump doesn’t succeed is an ignorant thing for me to say.  I don’t want this country to go to shit, so I hope that he is able to do good things.  But if he resorts to any type of bigotry against marginalized groups, I will be along side the people to protest it.  Washington hasn’t been working for a while, so maybe Trump is what we need to break Washington and create the change that we want to see.  The election of Trump has brought together so many people who strive for social justice and equality for all people.  I hope that through this sad time, we are able to rise above the bigotry and hatred, and fight for what is right.

I’m sorry for all the hate filled things I said in my last post, and hope this clear things up.

Fall In Your Ways

“So you can wake up and rise.” 

My head is just a jumble of thoughts right now.  Everything is just going rapid fire through my synapses and it’s hard for me to process what is even going on right now.

This goes beyond who voted for who, this goes beyond whose fault it is that the country has come to what it has.  I stand by my previous post: if you voted, no matter who you voted for, I respect your vote.  I respect the fact you partook in the democratic system.  This system breaks if people don’t vote.  And, I think we can all agree that given how close this election was, everyone’s vote mattered.

It all comes down to one thing: my country, the only country that I know and love, has voted in a racist, misogynistic, xenophobic, Islamophobic, homophobic pathetic excuse for a man as the 45th President of the United States.

For anyone who thinks that I am harsh and judgmental, I am.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

He has berated and belittled populations of people that are already disparaged in American society.  He has disrespected people who identify with the gender I identify with.  He has disrespected immigrants, who I see first hand as some of the most hard working people in this country; people who NEVER take what they have for granted.  He has disrespected people who do not belong in the same racial group that he belongs to.  He has disrespected the PEACEFUL people of a religion because of a group of radicals who do NOT represent the religion in the slightest.  He disrespected people who simply choose to love people of the same gender.  And, worst of all, he has never held elected office or even served our country.  How can people think that someone who has never done anything to support our government can be the LEADER OF THE FREE WORLD?!

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

But what boggles my mind the most is not his views; there are plenty of ignorant people in the world that truly do believe in what he believes (or at least says).  It’s the matter of how many people constitute that plenty.  I do realize that in the end, Hillary Clinton does carry the popular vote (will be discussed shortly), but the fact that she (currently) carries a little more than 200,000 votes more than Trump speaks more than volumes.  It tells me that almost 60 million people (more if you count the people who cannot/did not vote) agree with the message that he conveys.  That almost 60 million people are racist, misogynistic, xenophobic, Islamophobic, and homophobic.  It does not surprise me as much as disappoint me that the majority of white men in this country voted for Trump.  It deeply, deeply saddens and disappoints me that 50% of white WOMEN turned out for Trump.

Why, ladies?  Why? What exactly do you see in Donald Trump?

Oh, and fuck the electoral college. The electoral college is an antiquated system of bullshit.  It stopped Al Gore from Presidency in 2000, and once again stops the presidency of Hillary Clinton.

And for those of the Hillary haters that said, “I voted Trump because Hillary is a crooked criminal, blah blah,” bullshit, realize that by voting/supporting Trump, you are supporting everything he has said to disparaged groups in this country.  A country that embraces the nickname of “melting pot.”  A country that prides itself on its diversity and interest in diversity.  People of color, immigrants, women, and LGBTQIA people make up a HUGE portion of this country, and contribute billions of dollars to the economy of this country, and for him to be able to say he does not respect these groups of people is reprehensible.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

This isn’t to say that Hillary Clinton doesn’t come with her flaws.  As I said in my previous post, none of the candidates of the election were anywhere near ideal.  Hillary Clinton is not a good person.  I can totally see that.  I see that she had her email scandal, I see that she was most responsible for the four deaths of Americans in Benghazi, I see that she does not support the oppressed people of Palestine and instead supports the hostile occupation of the lands of Palestine by Israel, I see that she stood by the side of her husband in the wake of the women accusing him of sexual assault and rape.  I don’t just see it all, I understand and comprehend it all.  Hillary Clinton is not a good woman.  And as a woman, it hurts me to have supported her and wanted her to win for the well-being of this country.

It comes down to moral triggers for me though.  I cannot support conservative candidates because of their pro-life stances and anti-LGBTQIA stances, which are my biggest moral triggers.  I will not and cannot ever support a person who holds these views.  The graphic way that Donald Trump described abortions by “ripping the baby out of the uterus” in the third debate (I believe) was abhorrent.  On top of this, he held all his other hideous stances, and I simply could NEVER back a candidate like him.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

As a pro-choice, pro-LGBTQIA, pro-religious freedom, pro-immigration  woman of color, who is also the daughter and niece of some of the most hard-working immigrants in this country, it not only hurts me that I will soon be calling Donald J. Trump my President, but that there are millions upon millions of people out there that support and agree with his stances and messages.  It scares me that there are so many people out there that hate me, and hate my fellow people of color, my fellow women, my fellow minorities in all aspects of life.  Even in the most liberal of states, California, it scares me.  My parents live in Colorado in a place that highly supports Trump, and their well-being scares me to pieces.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

“Make America Great Again.”  I urge all of the people out there to tell me, when was America great before?  I’ll tell you when people believe that it was great.  When working class white men had jobs and could still consider themselves to be above black people and other people of color.  That is when these white men and women believe America was “great.”  And I am not discounting the views of these working class men and women.  Their point of losing their jobs to people overseas is valid; what isn’t valid is that they believe that America was great when their people had jobs and millions of people of color and other disparaged groups were mistreated and disrespected by not just the white elites, but all classes of white people.  America wasn’t great then.  It was only great for you.  It was incredibly shitty for the rest of the people.  And people of color still feel the hate today.  The election of Donald Trump just solidified our beliefs.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

And to all the people out there that white supremacy doesn’t exist: here is your fucking example.  If any, and I mean, any, person of color had said or done any of the things that not just Donald Trump, but Hillary Clinton has done, they would have NEVER been in the race.  NEVER.  If a person of color said that they hate white people or called white people “criminals and rapists,” they would NEVER, EVER have become President of the United States.  This is so outrightly an example of the white supremacist power in this country, and it pains me to even think that people don’t see it.  There are so many times that Donald Trump could have used his white supremacy to uplift and help communities of color, and instead he puts us down.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

So, to all my brothers and sisters of color, to all my brothers and sisters that identify as LGBTQIA, to all my brothers and sisters that are immigrants or hail from immigrant families, to all my brothers and sisters that practice the beautiful religion we call Islam, and to all my beautiful sisters out there, I am here for you.  I care deeply for you.  I care deeply for your safety.  I love you.  Let us all band together and work to make a difference in the world.  If you need to talk, please please please, do not hesitate to reach out.

I am NOT sorry that I cannot support him.

This Ain’t Gonna Stop

“So we just gonna continue.”

I am about to feed into the clusterfuck of articles that are about the United States’ 2016 Election Day, but I feel strongly about this, so here it goes.

Today, November 8th, 2016, is Election Day, which signals the hopeful end of this shit-show that we here in the US call the 2016 Presidential Election.  As entertaining as the comedy that has come out of this election has been, I am more than extremely excited for this state of insanity to come to an end.  In my short 22 years of life, I don’t remember seeing an election that has aggravated me so much.  Obviously, none of the candidates are ideal (yes, I am including 3rd party candidates), but all the empty back and forth rhetoric coming from all sides the spectrum has been absolutely grinding, and I, for one, am ecstatic that today marks the end (until inauguration in January, of course).  This election marks a slew of candidates that are far less ideal than any of the other Presidential candidates that have ran in my lifetime, but I cannot stress enough one thing:

IT DOESN’T FUCKING MATTER.

Voting is a privilege, no matter how many people tell you that it’s a right.  No one in this country has the RIGHT to vote.  This RIGHT can be taken away so quickly that you don’t even recognize it’s gone.  The people out there that can vote have the PRIVILEGE to vote.  I am a citizen of the US by birth, and have been law abiding enough that today, I can vote in my second Presidential election.  Today, I have the PRIVILEGE to vote for the next leader of the free world.

There are millions of people in this country that would do anything to have their voices heard, do anything to be in the position that I am in, but aren’t for one reason or another.  Many immigrants, documented or undocumented, are unable to vote because they are not naturalized citizens of this country.  It costs “buku” (thanks, Andre 3000)  dollars to become a citizen of this country, and many people don’t even have green card money to shell out to the government, let alone citizenship money.  Undocumented immigration has been a huge issue in this election, and these immigrants OF ALL ORIGINS (not just Mexican) can’t even have their voices heard because of the unfortunate situation they are in.

Today, I vote for them.

There are another couple million people, disproportionately black men, that have been labeled as felons, and have lost their right to vote.  Whether this label has been put on them rightfully or wrongfully, many of these people have been come voiceless, in more ways than one.  Many of these people will never have the chance to vote again.

Today, I vote for them.

It is incredibly easy for me to lose my right to vote, and I realize and recognize this fact.  I am tired of people saying, “Oh, I’m not going to vote in this election because none of the candidates are good.”  Realize what you are saying: “I am not going to vote.”  YOU have the privilege that others would “kill” (for lack of a better term) for.  DO NOT THROW AWAY THAT PRIVILEGE.  RECOGNIZE THAT PRIVILEGE AND USE IT.

I am human, I realize that none of these candidates are the best.  Yes, it hurt me to even bubble in my choice for President, because in my heart, I do not fully believe in the candidate that I voted for.  But, in life, we have to do things we don’t like, and today, I had to partake in doing something I don’t normally do, putting my belief in someone that I don’t fully agree with.

Also, there is more than a Presidential election going on today.  Today, you also have the chance to vote for your state and local officials.  At the end of the day, the results of the Presidential election will not affect you as much as the results of these respective elections.  It is important to vote for the state and local officials of your choice, as it is important for you to vote for your state and local Propositions.  These people and propositions are going to affect you far more than the President ever will in your lifetime, guarantee it.

At this point, I don’t even care who you vote for.  Because it’s not my business who you believe in or not.  All I care about is that you practice your privilege to vote.  Because there are millions of people in this country, and BILLIONS of people in other countries that do not have the privilege to be part of this democratic system, even if it does have some major flaws.

So please, if you are a US citizen, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, go exercise your privilege to vote.